Renewal

I wrote this poem in ’04. While conversing with a friend I realized that I am still in the renewing process so some parts of this reflection of me still holds true. Look for part two coming soon.
Renewal


Quiteness finds me
forces me on a despondent journey
inside
deep inside
where unhappiness resides
no longer able to hide
from my own lies
my fears
my cries
I initiate the demise
of self
past and present
the destruction evident
by a deadly virus taken resident
the only vaccination
emancipation
from self
you see I’m holding myself captive
by my thoughts
my actions
too much procrastination
and hesitation
too busy seeking external validation
because internally I won’t validate myself
but I want to
I need to
shed this dead skin
release a decade of pain
but it’s too late
cause see
this cancer I’ve inflicted upon myself from my toxic thinking
has feasted and grown
attached to my mind and my soul
its hold is too strong
I need the antidote
before it’s too late
my thoughts must proliferate
positively create
to take control
make me over
a new life is in order
because I’m tired of being trapped
within
this is my declaration
my desperation
has brought me to this destination
I bury the me I once was
breathe life into the new me I’ve desired to become
my moment has arrived
and now I can fly

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