I have had journals/diaries ever since I was a little girl. As the years go by, I often go back and look through them. One consistency is that they are all less than half full. In a couple of them, I only have about five pages worth of writing. I would start off good. Write every day. Then I would skip a month. Next thing I knew, months would turn into years. I would have all of these thoughts bottled up with no outlet. Then I discovered blogging…
I first began blogging back in 2004. What I found was that by putting my thoughts into cyberspace, that in return I gained understanding. That understanding came through faceless people. Just like now, they would read my words and offer solutions, their own experiences, opinions, and most importantly: support. I felt that I was being held accountable by what I said. If I put it out there, I had to follow through. I couldn’t just turn the page and act as if what I felt didn’t exist, or like my response to a situation wasn’t reality.
I stopped blogging sometime in 2005 because I cut my internet off due to the lack of productivity on other aspects of my life.
In 2007, I picked it back up. It started off the same way. Writing simply to get out what I was feeling inside. Then I began perusing other blogs. As that happened, others found my blog. My blog slowly drifted in another direction. It went from a place of personal growth to one of entertainment. I go back over and look at the comments and recognize that some of them have nothing to do with the post. I’m guilty of those myself. I got caught up in picture posts. Just got caught up in a lot of stuff. What I’m trying to say is that my blog has lost its focus. That’s one of the reasons why I took down my blogroll (nothing personal to any of you, especially you, Don…you know I have nothing but love for you.).
I am taking it back to those things that I am passionate about. In a couple of weeks I am turning 30. I was tripping because I’m going to be 30 and single. But today I am leaving to go to GA to see family and bury a family member who lost his life at 29. He will never see 30, and yet I am up here tripping off of minute things that can be changed. Once a life is gone, it can never come back. I can get into a relationship tomorrow; my cousin won’t be back tomorrow.
In the notebook I keep in my purse is a list of topics that I want to address. I want to go back to what brings growth in my life. Things that matter to me. I plan to do more vlogs. I even plan on chronicling my vision board so we can all see the things come to fruition. And yes, I will still do ‘why Wednesday’. I am just going in a different direction.
Some of you may find my blog to be boring and might choose to not come back. I still appreciate you. I will continue to come to everyone’s blog. Just because I don’t comment doesn’t mean that I didn’t read it. I am working on some things in my life. I am growing. Evolving. Being a better Julia.
This is Jewells signing out…